Feeling kind of numb lately. Desperate. I know it's senior-itis, but I'm also trying to cope with certain teacher. I haven't been emotionally exhausted like this in a long long time.
I tried to enjoy my veteran's day. I think for the most part I did. I didn't get a whole lot done, but I got enough done I think. This weekend is going to be the real test. I have a lot to do. Hopefully I'll be able to compartmentalize and get things accomplished.
I didn't do terrible on my diet today. It wasn't stellar by any means, but all the food I ate was actual food and not Wendy's or Taco Bell so that's good.
I miss working out. See emotionally exhausted.
I have to work very hard not get self-destructively bummed about it all. I keep telling myself it'll be over soon. Methods are hard enough without a teacher complicating it. I'm trying to stay positive. It's so goddamn hard. I'm supposed to be loving this and working hard. Instead I want to do anything but this.
I'm trying to take the Tao of Pooh verrrry, verrry seriously. It'll be about the only way I can cope with this semester. Worst case scenario: flunk out, work and pay off debt. Own a restaurant in 10 years. Not that bad.
Best case scenario: get straight A's, work and pay off debt. Own a restaurant in 10 years. Also not that bad, no?
Okay, time to be productive. This would be the part where Buddhism and Taoism help me survive.
...."From birth to death it's just like this?"
peace
mcsm
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