Hello. I'm still not very productive. I've rehearsed a thousand times in my head what needs to be done this week. I've known what I need to do since last Wednesday night. I have barely done any of it.

Part of it is I just don't want to do it. A lot of it is it's such a massive amount of work that I keep looking at it paralyzed. I also feel a little shortchanged. For both of my methods classes I need to utilize a huge amount of footage.

I barely have any footage. I need to hope that my next teaches for High School Methods are fantastic, and I need the different things that my exemplar teach is supposed to demonstrate to all be on the ONE lesson I recorded.

I can't imagine that my entire grade is bound to these tapes, but a good chunk is, and I just don't have the data. I keep getting distracted/confused/forgetful/someone forgets to tape for me. I'm getting really really nervous. I've done a lot of work this semester and I'm genuinely scared I'm not going to have good evidence for the things I've learned.

I don't know if I just am nervous cuz we're over the hill semester wise, but I think I might have something to be worried about.

Now that I've talked myself into a fit, I'm going to get to work...