Good morning. The sunset is glorious in BG. That whole waking up early thing I mentioned previously just gained a little more credence.
The apartment is a mess. I'm going to clean it today, and get everything as spic and span as I can (as Matt can, which is to say I will stack things neatly and wipe things down and try to throw out all the trash). Then I needs to revise my lesson for Elementary Methods and prepare for Monday.
I'm forcing myself to take my workloads one day at a time. Anna and I need to have a talk about this. We started to earlier this week. Hopefully we can continue it some time.
Right now the silence in the apartment is pretty cool. I likes my solitude on occasion. I don't likes my procrastination on more than one occasion (seriously there is a deep orange cutting directly across an already brightening blue and it's making me consider skipping sleep).
I agonize over the things I have to do. Today I stared the wave of shit I have to do down and it just made me retreat into facebook and other websites. I think I need a bit of time pressure to do things, but I'm not good at putting them on myself. Something to contemplate over Fall Break.
I'm kind of sick of contemplating though. When am I going to change my life? My tendencies? When will it be by my will? By my chosen circumstances? I always wanted to resist getting caught in the rat race, in the tidal wave of Things to Do. Now I'm in that riptide for sure. Some can thrive in this environment. Somehow I've found a way to survive. I wonder sometimes if I'm the weird one, or if it's society?
Anyway, I absolutely need to get some sleep before getting to it today (Sunday). Hope your day is a good one.
Peace
matt
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